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New York Quarterly - 1996

DISGUSTING

I've got this large plastic floater with headrest
and I get onto it
and float about the pool
looking up at the tall majesty of the trees
and the unclear California air
and paddle about for different positions
and different views,
some of my cats
sitting at the edge of the pool,
stare,
thinking that I have gone
crazy.
maybe I have.
they are used to seeing me
drunk,
they never mind
that.
but this?
have I turned into a
fish?
or what?

I flip off my floating bed,
sink down into the blue
pool,
rise up,
swim to the
edge.

I climb out,
walk toward my
towel.
dinner soon
and the boxing matches on
tv,
later a bottle of
cabernet.

It's so nice to
go to
hell.
    
Bone Palace Ballet - 1997

disgusting

I've got this large plastic floater with headrest
and I get onto it
and float about the pool
looking up at the tall majesty of the trees
through the unclear California air
I paddle about searching for
different views.
some of my cats
sitting at the edge of the pool,
stare,
thinking that I have gone
crazy.
maybe I have.
they are used to seeing me
sleeping or
at the computer
they don't mind
that.
but this?
have I turned into a
fish?
or what?

I flip off my floating bed,
sink down into the blue
pool,
rise up,
swim to the
edge.

I climb out,
walk toward my
towel.
 
dinner soon
and the boxing matches on
tv,
later a bottle of
cabernet.

it's so nice, this
road to
hell.